grief journey

Half of Me – A Poem

How did it ever come to be
That you became a part of me?
I started out my life alone
Content to live life on my own

But then I fell in love with you
As time went on, that’s when I knew
It was our destiny to meet
Your love for me made me complete

Our wedding day, I joined with you
And since you died, I’m split in two
Yes, we were one and now I see
Since you’ve been gone, I’m half of me

I’ve gone on with my life alone
I’ve made my way now on my own
But often when the day is through
I feel so empty without you

A song can bring a memory
That makes me think of you and me
Or some dumb thing we used to do
Will stir the pain of missing you

A simple thing you used to say
Will pop into my head each day
A vision of your smiling face
Will come to me most any place

And even though it’s been so long
It still can shock me that you’re gone
And once again I feel such fear
That I can’t live without you here

The hardest thing I’ve ever done
Is live my life since you’ve been gone
And, yes, I know you’re in my heart
Our spirits, they will never part

But how I long to see you here
To touch you, hear you, feel you near
To look into your eyes and see
My love for you mirrored back to me

It’s true, I’m stronger every day
And I’ll survive along the way
I’ll live a full life on my own
I’ll make it okay here alone

So, yes, I’m fine; oh sure, I’ll live
I’ll give life all I have to give
But deep inside, I know it’s true
I’m half a person without you

About the author

Katherine Billings Palmer is a technical writer, poet, and essayist from Garden City, Michigan. She’s won several academic writing awards, including first place in the University of Michigan Dearborn Critical Essay Contest for her work about poet John Donne: “‘The Sun Rising’: A Lover’s Boast.”

In 2017, Katherine’s husband, Rick, died of complications from small cell lung cancer. She wrote a series of poems and essays about her struggles to cope with her grief. I Wanted to Grow Old With You is available on Amazon in paperback and Kindle editions.

Her latest book, A Widow’s Words: Grief, Reflection, Prose, and Poetry – The First Year was published in January 2019 and is also available on Amazon.com.

Katherine is a guest blogger for the Hope for Widows Foundation and writes about her grief journey at www.TheWritingWidow.com.

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