I desperately want to turn back time.
I want to relive every moment, good and bad.
I want you here.
I want more time.
I want normal and nothing has been normal since you died.
When you were diagnosed, we knew there was no forever,
but I never really pictured it. It was a vague shadowy future that I dreaded but wouldn’t allow myself to truly envision.
I couldn’t have if I tried.
I never could have imagined a pain this raw.